Feliz cumpleaños a mí

A celebration for the race that I won.

Yes the race that thousands were trying to beat me at but I, Roxanne, the Gemini born on this day who is basking under the Costa Rican sun with a cup of coffee in hand, won the OFFICIAL RACE OF CONCEPTION.  A lot of people shy away from their birthday's but I find it a wonderful event to celebrate and APPRECIATE to the fullest.  My life is an absolute treasure. With the soul that I arrived with joined by my mind and heart whom are my best friends and from my family and friends who I get to enjoy and have witness my days here on this earth... I know that my life is a true gift...

That said it's time for an "official celebration :)

I have been granted a perfect gift this year for all my hard work and devotion... I have been brought to Costa Rica with a wonderful group of friends for project that offered me creative inspiration and a "job" finsished with amazing success.  Now on my birthday I get to experience a tasty swell of EPIC Surf in this beautiful country.  Being able surf warm water and fun waves on my birthday is the ULTIMATE treat to me...  It is a beautiful country here and there is NO doubt that I will be back over and over again to enjoy it. 

Today I plan to stay salty, smiling, and thankful for all the days before this one and all of the days I will experience after this one.

I love being a GEMINI and now I am going to play

ADIOS AMIGOS!

xxRx

CAGED HEAT x x x x x x

Sugar snaps and whistles...lipsticks and stilettos...

dancing under the moon

singing to my inner tunes...

reaching for ideas

dreamy dreams pave the way

journey into the sun

keep creating and constantly learning.. this is MY fountain of YOUTH...

Happiness BLINDS CONFUSION

HOPE drowns worries...

Saturday brings closer a Sunday...

My favorite day :)

I just want to play and play...

wandering into the dark, heart lights up the way

Questions lead to answers

or more questions...

Move over and give us some room...

Twirling and skipping through the world

How serious do you want to be?

I just want to be a WOMAN...

It's fun to be in the Mind of ME.

so many thoughts, so many wonders...

A raging case of " FREE SPIRIT"

How else can the spirit LIVE?

Design your freedom...

xxRxx

 

Smelling Roses...

She's says "I'm bending time getting back to you"...

I love that line.  I would bend time to get back to someone I love.  

In a Heartbeat.

The past few days have been pretty magical for this Gemini...

From Palm Springs to surfing the Jetty in my bikini (YES bikini in April!), I have been blessed with many amazing days of friends both vintage classics and new collections all while under the sunshined days or moon lit nights.  I am so grateful for the amAzing ness I have in my life.  

Today was a perfect day.  The combination of my passion for fashion and my artistry was alive while teaming up with a special mate who brings the sunshine out every time I'm around him, then hitting the ocean for a late day surf before hitting one of my favorite sushi spots for an insane dinner full of CACKLES.  wow... See why I'm always so grateful?  Today was the ultimate for me,  a day that proves I am already gaining the dream that I had when I moved from Kauai years ago... to own my life so I can surf where ever I want, when ever I want all while building a healthy life full of simplicity, passion and a bit of luxury...  

I believe dreams do come true if your HEART is committed to the dream...

Believing is a powerful thing to do and having your HEART backing it up... well that kind of makes what ever it is that you believe in unstoppable...

When you wish upon a star

Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you
If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do
Fate is kind
She brings to those to love
The sweet fulfillment of
Their secret longing
Like a bolt out of the blue
Fate steps in and sees you through
When you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true...

I believe in FATE but I have always been a believer that we can manipulate our destinies...
We are the masters of our universe, we are the planters of our gardens, we are responsible for our choices...

If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme...

I am in love with those words because they posses so much TRUTH and that is one part of the TRUTH that I live faithfully in my life...

"Cherish your visions: cherish your ideals; cherish the music that stirs your heart, the beauty that forms in your mind, the love lines that drapes your purest thoughts, for out of them will grow all delightful conditions, all heavenly environment; of these, if you but remain TRUE to them, YOUR WORLD WILL AT LAST BE BUILT."

eyes closing, dawn patrolling in the morning... 

xRxxx

REVERSED

The moon sits reversed in my cards...

I am asked to look into my inner feelings and intuition and TRUST.

The word that seems to light up dark corners,the word that fulfills unanswered questions and hold's my hand when I look for support...

I TRUST that I am exactly where I am supposed to be in the moment and that something brilliant and shinny has been looking for me... I provoke it to find me and I TRUST that it's right around the corner from doing so...

This week started with a perfect weekend before it.

I had a wonderful weekend with friends down by the beach in San Diego. Life's most simple pleasures really turn me on... Quality time with quality friends under the sun, in and out of the ocean with waves to play on, sharing laughter and good food, making every part of my day count in meaningful ways... Its so healthy to be able to get close to nature before technology, traffic, and NOISE creeps into the day... That is the gift that us surfers can bring into our lives... we can start and end the day owning it in the ocean...

It came at a perfect time. Creating a life where I own my time is a process that expectedly brings challenges in the early stages of the journey. Currently the "weather" is challenging me to keep my sunshine bright while a storm tries to move in. I discovered that the best way to do this is to surround myself with LOVE. LOVE for everything I have in my life, LOVING the pure things I enjoy such as my writing, surfing, music and day dreaming... LOVE for the time I get to own, LOVE for the friends and family I have to share it with and LOVE for the truth that I get to live while so many others roam this earth with out a clue...

These days I find myself saying "thank you" more than "why?" when I am challenged... Enlightened? Hopefully continuously. With more wisdom constantly loving and lighting up my journey... That is living RICH in my eyes...

Breezy and crisp are two words to describe the sensation that I am feeling inside of me at the moment... One part of me is standing on my tippie toes trying to peak over branches that stand tall in front of me... The other is sitting with my hands at my third eye meditating in stillness...

Its fun to be a Gemini...

I have no complaints only questions that I don't need answered but rather discovered through life's perfect timing.... with every "tick" and "tock" my TRUST grows stronger....

The full moon approaches and I can't wait. I'm ready to finish old projects and work on the NEW.... I feel a chapter coming to an end and I can smell the pages of a new one. I am tuning in and READY... Travel is arriving at my door soon and my bags are already packed. Soon I will be back in the comfort of an airport where I get to be the mystery that I love to be... Music on. people staring, wondering who I am, where I'm going, what I'm thinking... I love to make people think…

I love to offer back some mystery to the world around me… to walk around and read the eyes and energy of passing people...

It has always been a goal of mine to one day,  go to the airport with a bag in my hand, pick a destination and just GO… Take a holiday with no plans only instincts that would lead me to a beautiful stay where ever I was… I will turn this idea into a reality when it feels right and when I do it will be AMAZING... 13 years of traveling has made it MY lifestyle and I still feel like I have only just begun... So many places to feel, so many languages to listen to, so many new connections to discover, so many different waves to surf...

Tomorrow is a new day and a day that brings me closer to seeing what exists over the branches for me, a day closer to an enlightened sense of patience that I earned through my stillness, one day closer to the knock of travel and opportunity at my door and ultimately one day closer to my spontaneous idea of a "pick a spot and GO" holiday...

This week's provocative words of adventurer Edmund Hillary : "It is not the mountain we conquer but ourselves".

xxRxx

WATER YOUR GARDEN

The Black Rebel Motorcycle Club's track "As Sure as the Sun" is playing for me right now...
a bit of DREAMER in the sound complimented with a bit of REBEL in their ROCK...
so HOT and perfectly sets the tone to compliment my attitude in the moment.

Flowers cannot grow in the snow 

I am reminded today to water my garden...

To keep it blooming with vivid colors and blossoming with love...

Its past my bedtime but I will drop a few thoughts thanks to my inspiration (you know who you are ;))

I'm in a perfect mood to climb a mountain right now

To look at the world from above while in the hands of our sacred Mother Nature

Nature brings everything together for me... She is the ULTIMATE reminder that we were born to LIVE... and reminds us just how to do that... 

It's so EASY for me to kick my heels off and bury my toes in sand, even mud, and just submit to my passion for nature... letting go of the metropolitan twin in me (until I get my art/cement itch)... I love both elements and I accredit both to the makeup of my character... HOWEVER. Nothing is as rewarding and releasing as being one with nature to me... That is the reason why I can surpass my fear of sharks and surf till dark... That is the reason why I will brave the freezing cold to go up to a mountain top and slide down it... Nature reminds us what is TRUE and what is IMPORTANT... Nature is PURE and extremely POWERFUL... In many ways NATURE is GOD in my eyes...

We are 3 days away from our NEW MOON, can you feel it?  Well its obvious that I do and I know that she can feel ME too... Its time to finish up old business on a HIGH note... and all I want to do is DANCE....

A teasing mystery has tapped me on the shoulder and wants to play hide and go seek...

I'm drawn into the game
Now with patience, a virtue of mine, I swing through the minutes of the day waiting strong for the prize to seek me...  

I'm spinning.  I am collecting my thoughts.  I am performing a balancing act while the earth shakes below me to test how bad I want it. NO FEAR.  I have strong legs for a reason :)

Just deep running emotions that I love to spill and entertain myself with... my own personal reality show... just for me...  

One day I will look back on these entries with a smile... just as I do when write them...

Before I send my mind to dream... I will remind myself of some of the most important words to come into my heart and touch my life...

I beg you

To have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to LOVE the QUESTIONS themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language.

DON'T search for the ANSWERS which can not be given to you NOW because you would not be able to LIVE them. And the point is to LIVE EVERYTHING.  LIVE the QUESTIONS NOW. Perhaps then, someday far in the FUTURE, you will gradually, without even noticing it, LIVE your way into the ANSWER...  (Rainer Maria Rilke)

Poetry in motion to kiss me goodnight. Lucky girl.

xxRxx

*Options*

Ive been waiting patiently the last few days... to FEEL the NEED to be here... in my favorite room with thoughts buzzing, ideas soaring, emotions stirring, and of course my beloved music to weave it all together Perrrfectly... 

This new week looks like it will be shifting my course, CHANGE is HERE :)

I love change.

Its important to feel "safe" in life but I admit that I am totally addicted to a life where every day is TRULY a new day... It creates more of a self obligation to be on my game and I LOVE to challenge my own AIRY spontaneity with the POWER of my discipline... 

I also love how it has helped me to CREATE complete TRUST in my choices  and in my journey with our Universe backed by the powers of my ACTIONS... and that is where I find my safety... so you see there is SAFETY in "Living on the edge of your seat"  Never getting too comfortable, always a bit prepared with the WARRIOR within to go into survival mode if need be... Ultimately creating a foundation of severe strength, meaningful color and proud harmony to look back at with a smile of satisfaction...

Of course the ultimate goal is to become a MASTER in my life... but i see no other way to become a MASTER with out reaching perfect trust through the trials that challenge the warrior in me to EVOLVE into one...

So here I am, warrior in motion... ready for change, armed with TRUST and FAITH that I have the to power to cross the waters both rough and calm with grace... I am ready to RISE and I am ready to be still if need be... I am ready for the opportunities that will push me to higher ground... I am ready to stay steady on my path until I see the bridge that will connect me to ELEVATION... Either way I am READY. And also GRATEFUL for what ever comes my way... ALWAYS...

I sense a lot of "alone" time approaching... Time to snuggle with my thoughts late night and time for me to take my ideas out on dates to EXPLORE... my day dreaming and I are totally in love with each other... anything that makes my mind grow and light up makes me a very HAPPY girl... 

I can feel it... I can feel the TURN approaching that is on the road in front of me.  When you start to FEEL your way through life you KNOW your on to something good... Senses are sharp right now as if its Natures finest drug making me HIGH with the possibilities of what looks to be coming my way... 

I am eager with excitement for tomorrow and the day after... I wouldn't want to LIVE any other way...

Thank god Mercury, the planet of communication, is my RULING planet... I feel like I live on Mercury sometimes with how much energy I have in my love for communicating... I just want to continue living the TRUTH that LIVES inside of me and dance around in the colors of LIFE that flirt with me because I ENCOURAGE them to... Its fun to have a secret language with yourself... it's almost just as fun when someone can crack the code and understand your secret tongue as well... to SHARE is a passion of mine... to SHARE with those who fuel your fire is Magical... I love MAGIC... I love to wander... I love to wonder... I love to wander with wonder magically through promising mystery... to find a buried treasure, to play hide and go seek... to run with the wind in your hair and the sun on your back... to hold your breath under water with open eyes gazing into a blur that creates an addiction or a fear... perhaps both?

The more I sit here and think, the more I realize that...

Its time for bed :)

There's so much territory to cover and so much time to do it... (WINK)

Ready or not... Here I come........

xxrxx

Twinkle Twinkle little star...

I Just want to throw this out into the Universe on this lovely day after the FULL MOON... 

I would REALLY love to get the opportunity to work with Ellen Von Unwerth in my career... I am so seduced by her work that I can feel it, touch it, smell it and taste it... Its absolutely my DISH and positively delicious...  it would be the pinnacle point in my career...

or should I say WILL BE?  

I will manifest it and seal it with a Kiss.... 

XxRxX

THE FOOL

(BJORK+ZERO7 set the tone...)

As I was unpacking my bag tonight from a lovely few days in Montreal, I discovered something amazing in one of my boot bags... I have NO idea how it made it's way there since it's home is always on or in my dresser. BUT. somehow someway one of my beautiful tarot cards was sitting in the bag waiting for me to discover her...

Which card?

THE FOOL... Note the words that correspond with the image and then the translation:

The Fool is off on an adventure. She wants to cross the river walking on her hands. The cat is testing the water to make sure it is not too deep to cross. The Fool wants to see the aminita muscara mushrooms on the other side. The mushrooms are deadly if approached incorrectly. The pygmy crocodile already warned the Fool of the possible dangers. The Fools only possessions is a bag of TRUTH painted with an OPEN EYE. She rings the bells and shakes the peacock feathers to call on the Goddess. The Goddess comes as a griffon-vulture to bless the journey at the beginning of the NEW DAY.

Translation:

The Fool lives in a world where EVERYTHING is possible. She is the Goddess's special and favorite child. The Fool is a Sacred clown who breaks the SOCIAL CONVENTION, Open Hearts and Stands closest to the spirit. She represents the PURE impulse to ACT and CREATE no matter what ANYONE says. This energy reminds us to be AWAKE and OPEN to possibilities at EACH MOMENT...

Now I am a believer. PERIOD. And one thing I believe in is that it is important to stay very aware in life. To keep your pencils sharpened at all times... The more that we listen, the more that we open the eyes in our souls and start looking out through them rather than just our eyes, the more perfect we can TRUST what we see. We start to see life through a vision where we are able to guide ourselves and our lives to higher ground... OR that's just how I SEE it anyways... I choose to take my beautiful Fool surprising me with its random hiding place as a message and reminder of where I am at with myself, with my life and what direction I am dancing towards within it...

Montreal served me some wonderful time with friends, some new, some special forever... I had the pleasure of some beautiful alone time as well to walk through the cold streets with my music and mind... A few of my gathered cafe thoughts that came to life while sitting on some breakfast dates with ME, with my music and a BRIGHT window to look out of...

Alone. Mind wanders. Hands follow... Sitting, waiting, hoping, thinking, loving, wondering, breathing…

I love to be in transit. I love to be one with the wind… going, coming, leaving, always moving and keeping things FRESH…

Its a strange but powerful feeling to KNOW in the depths of your SOUL that you were born to discover... Discover truth. Discover love. Discover pain. Discover inspiration. Discover people and places that will bring fourth color into your life... I know that I was born to roam... Roam this earth and be moved by the experiences I gain while doing so. I have been touched by many places and yet somehow I FEEL where I will ultimately call HOME. I see RICH. Rich that does not stem from currency but rather IDEAS. Ideas that will come to fruition. I will celebrate them when they develop. I will have EARNED it. Earning is a gift within its self. We are so lucky when we can recognize life's simple treasures. The ones you can't ever touch but can touch you for the rest of your life...

In love. With the world that walks by mine and entertains my thoughts... MUSIC. Is always the backdrop that binds it all together. Mystery. Is scratching at my heart. Clawing. Away at it, waiting for it to bleed but all that leaves me is curiosity... Solo. This is where one learns the most. Confrontation. Leads the way into my soul... I face her. With open arms... We meet eye to eye and know that we are in love... Perfect love. Perfect trust. I'm melting. Melting into a sea of opportunity... I swim. In the depths of what CAN be and what WILL be... There is NO such thing as what should be. I move. Into action. Action that propels me into the sky. The sky. Where limitless opportunity exists... And ohh do I desire... Slowly. But in PERFECT time. It all makes sense in a very obscure manner... What a gift. To be able to read between the lines. To understand the misunderstood. To believe. To move to the rhythm of instincts. To trust. To have total trust.... This is a place where my soul showers me with love and RESPECT... What a PURE place to exist... (then it was time to eat)

Oh and I fell in LOVE in Montreal too. His name is Kees Van Dongen. He left me with chills all over my body, and outrageous inspiration... Art truly is a UNIVERSAL language and I find it so incredibly sexy...

Only the great masters of style ever succeeded in being obscure... EXACTLY. I love you Oscar Wilde...

XRX