DANCA THROUGH VERAO

"Were never going to survive unless we get a little crazy"... AWESOME words to live by and i DO (thank you SEAL)...

Oh yes you have heard me say it before, I love to scribble outside the lines, I mean who put them there anyways? I am grateful for them though. With out them how would one feel rebellious by stepping outside the box?

I love to JUMP outside the box, to breathe in the air of mystery and question, to not look back and wonder but to look forward and believe...

The sunshine that has been blanketing me these past few days has been incredible. I never stop being grateful for one second for all of the simple treasures that surround me. To be a woman is a gift. She most definitely offers up some insane challenges but when all is lined up inside and she is really connected to herself it can be the most incredible sensation. I love incredible sensations...

Tonight I'm in the mood to play. Luckily tonight I will have a playground to play on and some of my favorite musica to move to. NYC is coming to get DEEP :) My nails are painted and my heels are high. I am going to dance my way into the new week and carry the energy I get from it though out it. I sense it will be a very positive one because of it...

The energy I get from dancing is something that I plan on giving to myself until my hips officially give out. For now its on and I'm excited. Over the last 12 years of my life I have danced to so much amazing music, bonded with people who are now more like family than my best friends and most of all every single time I get a good night of music in (MY KIND OF MUSIC FAR FROM ANYTHING COMMERCIAL) I feel SO connected to myself and all the insane memories I have from all over the world in the last decade.... I swear I was Brasilian in a past life because I just keep dancing through this one just like they do regardless of status, money, rain or shine... they know how to keep it going... and I share the same passion.

SO that's me on Dancing and soon I will put on my red lips and go.

This weekend has been delicious and in some ways the start of some new adventures.

I love adventures...

xxRxxx

SUNNY SIDE UP

The stars have fallen from the sky and sprinkled their dust into my eyes... Feelings are loud today... I want new music and different languages surrounding me... 

I am tuned into deep frequencies and sense my wings waking for a stretch... a stretch that will take me across the sea and draw new inspirations to me... It's time and Im ready...

Im ready to walk down the street of a foreign country and breath in the mystery of all that surrounds me.  To take in the new... To LEARN and bring in more wisdom... to feed my curiosity the mystery she is intrigued by... to surround myself with LOVE... 

LOVE is a topic that is as passionate and intense as religion. War, death and celebration have all stemmed from LOVE just as it has from religion.  LOVE is the ruler of my spirit, it is what fills my heart and fuels my ever burning fire...   I just want to go and go... 

I wonder today... What is it that will be sending me to the center of my universe soon?  I think I am going to have to make a bold move to set it in motion... Ive never had a problem with doing that in my life... To hum the same tune everyday is unacceptable in my life...

Sitting here wasting my time
Would be like
Waiting for the sun to rise
It's all too clear things come and go
Sitting here waiting 
Would be like waiting for winter
It's gonna be cold
There may even
Be snow...

I would prefer to keep snow in it's proper season and not have it interrupt my summer.  What is it with this day that has me happy, yes happy truly, but I am also longing for something to pick me up and take me away... that has me spinning in circles...

Spinning in a daisy field would be nice right now... Under the sunshine while drops of warm rain trickle down my face, laughing, spinning, poetry in motion...

Ying to Yang here I come, I have only the best intentions... ALWAYS... Where do you want me to go from here? I just want to hold your hand... Who will ever know? Sometimes the best part is NOT to...

Chilled beats serve up a delicious background for creating,,, my favorite past time along side surfing... Tomorrow starts a new week full of potential and possibilities... a FULL MOON lies with in it... 

So much to come, so much to share thank you for paying such close attention to the scribbles in my mind... maybe one day soon we will meet... 

Bon Soiree

xRx

FANTASIA...

FEAR CAN STOP YOUR LOVING BUT LOVE CAN STOP YOUR FEAR...

Today I climbed... I climbed into fresh territory... I have so many things to share, so many things have shifted... so many ideas and thoughts to relish in... Tonight is simple. I just want to blow kisses and talk about my day dreaming... I feel myself YEARNING to wander... Wander away to places my heart sings for, places that express my inner feelings and stimulate my mind...
I love to encourage my mind to go further with it's wisdom and to keep my spirit charged with electricity... ELECTRICITY is teasing me with thoughts of running with the wind... Jump on a cloud and swing through the skies... Blue skies Inside my Mind...

I know that I am born to explore because staying in one place for too long, even for just reasons, feels like I am disconnecting myself from my internal twin (yes Gemini)... I value my patience and the course I have put myself on because I know ultimately I am working my way to that door of mine overseas... After all there is no great reward without great sacrifice...

"There can be no progress, no achievement without sacrifice. A man's worldly success will be in the measure that he sacrifices his confused animal thoughts, and fixes his mind on the development of his plans, and the strengthening of his resolution and self reliance. And the higher he lifts his thoughts, the more manly, upright, and righteous he becomes, the greater will be his success, the more blessed an enduring will be his achievements."
So beautifully expressed by James Allen. Someone who's words inspire me everyday, someone who simply was way ahead of his time...

It's midnight and I should close my eyes but all I would do is dream about being here in this room scribbling the thoughts that swirl in my heart and play in my mind...
Summer is here and I can feel the freshness of the sunshine surrounding my energy. I just want to explore... to grow... to accomplish... to create... to love- every single step of the way because they are all are the pieces to the picture I am building in the life of mine... RESPECT.

I know that I will soon be devouring the places I long to be and in the meantime I will be loving exactly where I am...

I think I will close the curtains now and go create something in my mind while my eyes stay closed but I know I will be back for another fix tomorrow or the next,,, I have SO much more to offer...

but for now...

Bon Nuit xxx

FRESH IN THE CLOUDS

This entry will be broken up into two parts: COMING and GOING…

Part 1: COMING-→ LAX/JFK June 1, 2009

It’s always nice to start a fresh approach to elements of your life on FIRSTS.
The 1st of months, the first day of a new week, the first day you entered this world aka your birthday, the first day of the New Year… 

Which ever and whatever the case is for some reason when committing with a renewed line of attack towards your goals, thoughts and or ideas, it somehow feels as if there is more ability to reach success. I am feeling a strong urge to clean out my closet and offer all of my energy to bringing in the “new and improved”.
The piano whispers in my ears… I tried to read my new novel but the sweet whispers of the piano and violin tempted me to be here instead… Unraveling the thoughts that were sitting patiently on the sides of my mind waiting for me to give them attention… So here I am and here I go…
One of the very many reasons I love to travel is because it has a wonderful way of creating instant “chapters” in my life. Something is always a little bit different when I come and when I go. One of the very many reasons I love to fly so much is because it is the perfect opportunity for me to reflect and absorb the memories of the chapter I just completed… There is much to be said about of the last pages of my life before this flight... thick pages of love, questions, hope, excitement, determination and trust. There is also a strong potential for this little adventure I am embarked on to start a turning point of multiple changes in my life. Changes that I encourage and look extremely forward to seeing come together… Who knows what tomorrow brings but I definitely plan on focusing my ENERGY towards bringing fourth what my heart desires…

My. Heart. Desires. 

What does my heart desire??? 

Many things… Most wholesome and simple. Then there are a few shameless ones in there that are provoked by my lust for some luxury in life… It’s my story and I can write it how I want to right? And I work to EARN it all…
I’ve made up my mind about a few things in my life. I have stamped my signature strength on them and officially made commitments to myself to see them through.
“How bad do you want it?” I don’t want anything badly actually… I would LOVE to see a few things appear and a few things shift in my world… In my mind there is only ONE way to see that happen… PURE DEVOTION AND FOCUS and I have a renewed sense of energy to achieving them on this first day of June…
I believe that I will have the privilege to see my desires come together in my life because I was first blessed and then CHOOSE to stay AWARE and TRUE to who I am, what I believe and what my HEART DESIRES…. I always have and so far so good…
A lot can change over night and change does not scare me… Sometimes it can be difficult to deal with but with out the challenges that our inner strength will have to face at times, we would never be able to realize how powerful we are and what we are capable of.

I know one thing for sure and that is that I don’t know one thing for sure.BUT. For all that I do know we are here with one life to live and in this life of mine I encourage myself everyday to exist at my most optimum level and enjoy the colors of life (yes that includes my beloved and often underrated GRAY)

Learn new languages and open the mind, meet new people and have interesting conversations, discover places in the world that pictures only give a bland impression to the true beauty that exists with in them, let your eyes be priceless for all they have seen when they lay to rest for the final time and let your mind be a buried treasure for all the wisdom that grew inside of it…

I am blind to what is to come of this “adventure” I am on at the moment but I can FEEL that it will bring fourth exactly what I am hoping for…
To be continued… XxX

PART 2: GOING → JFK/LAX June 2, 2009

Back in transit to the left coast where the beautiful ocean in my front yard awaits me ☺
I am sitting on this plane so grateful and would be energized by a great day but a lack of sleep and hectic schedule has left me faded on this flight- No worries, I have a super reclined chair, a lovely pillow and blanket, a glass of wine coming and a few hours alone to share in this room…
I embarked on this trip with a goal in mind. An idea that what was waiting at the end of this trip would be the start to a wonderful new adventure…an opportunity that would ultimately connect the dots in my path towards some major accomplishments I wish to achieve. Well I am so pleased to fly back to my house on the beach with a proud smile in my heart because I did it. I kept my spirit bright and focused on bringing fourth the outcome that I wanted to see develop and it did go my way. Once I know it is OFFICAL and I am confirmed with a future on this project then I will be celebrating... For now my success lies in the idea I had and the focus I put behind it that made it come to life… Even if it all stops with this day, I still will look back and read it as SUCCESS… but I know this has only just begun…
Now I will sit back, sip on my pinot noir, munch on my warmed almonds and relax… I did what I came to do and now I leave it to the universe to work out what is meant to be for me… I know she has my best interest…
I feel inspired. I read my horoscope for June written by one of my favorite astrologers last night after I wrote PART1 of this entry… it feels great to see that I am tuned in instinctually with the universe CHECK IT OUT:

While June will bring lots of action, July will be even better. June will be about resetting priorities and strategy. If you don't clear the decks and review all the elements in your life now, you won't be able to begin your new cycle with as much clean energy as you would if you did take the time to delete any elements in your life that are holding you back. If you don't go through the process of reexamination, by time you get to July 11, it will be like washing your white things in hot water, but tossing your black jeans into the same load. They don't belong there, of course, and those jeans taint your whole wash with a tinge of grey and spoil the clean freshness of that cycle. You won't want to bring anything from your past that you feel is not valuable and no longer contributes to your future. You have lots of exciting things coming up on the road ahead, and if you don't make room, you may become completely overwhelmed. June is definitely one of your power months.

I never have a plan of where I would like to start when I meet myself in this room. One thing leads to another and just like that a healthy amount of words fall from my mind all over this page… This is going to be a wonderful month for me I CAN FEEL IT… I have a lot of power behind my drive right now to keep my GAME on high and allow myself the reward of successes that will start to come with it…

I can taste the fresh made tapas in my Spanish kitchen after a day of surf is well on its way… CHEERS TO THAT!

XRX

PS... Happy Birthday Jan Petter!  I don't need to wish for all your dreams and success to come true because I KNOW THEY ARE... Elsker Deg Alltid...  xx88xx

Feliz cumpleaños a mí

A celebration for the race that I won.

Yes the race that thousands were trying to beat me at but I, Roxanne, the Gemini born on this day who is basking under the Costa Rican sun with a cup of coffee in hand, won the OFFICIAL RACE OF CONCEPTION.  A lot of people shy away from their birthday's but I find it a wonderful event to celebrate and APPRECIATE to the fullest.  My life is an absolute treasure. With the soul that I arrived with joined by my mind and heart whom are my best friends and from my family and friends who I get to enjoy and have witness my days here on this earth... I know that my life is a true gift...

That said it's time for an "official celebration :)

I have been granted a perfect gift this year for all my hard work and devotion... I have been brought to Costa Rica with a wonderful group of friends for project that offered me creative inspiration and a "job" finsished with amazing success.  Now on my birthday I get to experience a tasty swell of EPIC Surf in this beautiful country.  Being able surf warm water and fun waves on my birthday is the ULTIMATE treat to me...  It is a beautiful country here and there is NO doubt that I will be back over and over again to enjoy it. 

Today I plan to stay salty, smiling, and thankful for all the days before this one and all of the days I will experience after this one.

I love being a GEMINI and now I am going to play

ADIOS AMIGOS!

xxRx

CAGED HEAT x x x x x x

Sugar snaps and whistles...lipsticks and stilettos...

dancing under the moon

singing to my inner tunes...

reaching for ideas

dreamy dreams pave the way

journey into the sun

keep creating and constantly learning.. this is MY fountain of YOUTH...

Happiness BLINDS CONFUSION

HOPE drowns worries...

Saturday brings closer a Sunday...

My favorite day :)

I just want to play and play...

wandering into the dark, heart lights up the way

Questions lead to answers

or more questions...

Move over and give us some room...

Twirling and skipping through the world

How serious do you want to be?

I just want to be a WOMAN...

It's fun to be in the Mind of ME.

so many thoughts, so many wonders...

A raging case of " FREE SPIRIT"

How else can the spirit LIVE?

Design your freedom...

xxRxx

 

Smelling Roses...

She's says "I'm bending time getting back to you"...

I love that line.  I would bend time to get back to someone I love.  

In a Heartbeat.

The past few days have been pretty magical for this Gemini...

From Palm Springs to surfing the Jetty in my bikini (YES bikini in April!), I have been blessed with many amazing days of friends both vintage classics and new collections all while under the sunshined days or moon lit nights.  I am so grateful for the amAzing ness I have in my life.  

Today was a perfect day.  The combination of my passion for fashion and my artistry was alive while teaming up with a special mate who brings the sunshine out every time I'm around him, then hitting the ocean for a late day surf before hitting one of my favorite sushi spots for an insane dinner full of CACKLES.  wow... See why I'm always so grateful?  Today was the ultimate for me,  a day that proves I am already gaining the dream that I had when I moved from Kauai years ago... to own my life so I can surf where ever I want, when ever I want all while building a healthy life full of simplicity, passion and a bit of luxury...  

I believe dreams do come true if your HEART is committed to the dream...

Believing is a powerful thing to do and having your HEART backing it up... well that kind of makes what ever it is that you believe in unstoppable...

When you wish upon a star

Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you
If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do
Fate is kind
She brings to those to love
The sweet fulfillment of
Their secret longing
Like a bolt out of the blue
Fate steps in and sees you through
When you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true...

I believe in FATE but I have always been a believer that we can manipulate our destinies...
We are the masters of our universe, we are the planters of our gardens, we are responsible for our choices...

If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme...

I am in love with those words because they posses so much TRUTH and that is one part of the TRUTH that I live faithfully in my life...

"Cherish your visions: cherish your ideals; cherish the music that stirs your heart, the beauty that forms in your mind, the love lines that drapes your purest thoughts, for out of them will grow all delightful conditions, all heavenly environment; of these, if you but remain TRUE to them, YOUR WORLD WILL AT LAST BE BUILT."

eyes closing, dawn patrolling in the morning... 

xRxxx

REVERSED

The moon sits reversed in my cards...

I am asked to look into my inner feelings and intuition and TRUST.

The word that seems to light up dark corners,the word that fulfills unanswered questions and hold's my hand when I look for support...

I TRUST that I am exactly where I am supposed to be in the moment and that something brilliant and shinny has been looking for me... I provoke it to find me and I TRUST that it's right around the corner from doing so...

This week started with a perfect weekend before it.

I had a wonderful weekend with friends down by the beach in San Diego. Life's most simple pleasures really turn me on... Quality time with quality friends under the sun, in and out of the ocean with waves to play on, sharing laughter and good food, making every part of my day count in meaningful ways... Its so healthy to be able to get close to nature before technology, traffic, and NOISE creeps into the day... That is the gift that us surfers can bring into our lives... we can start and end the day owning it in the ocean...

It came at a perfect time. Creating a life where I own my time is a process that expectedly brings challenges in the early stages of the journey. Currently the "weather" is challenging me to keep my sunshine bright while a storm tries to move in. I discovered that the best way to do this is to surround myself with LOVE. LOVE for everything I have in my life, LOVING the pure things I enjoy such as my writing, surfing, music and day dreaming... LOVE for the time I get to own, LOVE for the friends and family I have to share it with and LOVE for the truth that I get to live while so many others roam this earth with out a clue...

These days I find myself saying "thank you" more than "why?" when I am challenged... Enlightened? Hopefully continuously. With more wisdom constantly loving and lighting up my journey... That is living RICH in my eyes...

Breezy and crisp are two words to describe the sensation that I am feeling inside of me at the moment... One part of me is standing on my tippie toes trying to peak over branches that stand tall in front of me... The other is sitting with my hands at my third eye meditating in stillness...

Its fun to be a Gemini...

I have no complaints only questions that I don't need answered but rather discovered through life's perfect timing.... with every "tick" and "tock" my TRUST grows stronger....

The full moon approaches and I can't wait. I'm ready to finish old projects and work on the NEW.... I feel a chapter coming to an end and I can smell the pages of a new one. I am tuning in and READY... Travel is arriving at my door soon and my bags are already packed. Soon I will be back in the comfort of an airport where I get to be the mystery that I love to be... Music on. people staring, wondering who I am, where I'm going, what I'm thinking... I love to make people think…

I love to offer back some mystery to the world around me… to walk around and read the eyes and energy of passing people...

It has always been a goal of mine to one day,  go to the airport with a bag in my hand, pick a destination and just GO… Take a holiday with no plans only instincts that would lead me to a beautiful stay where ever I was… I will turn this idea into a reality when it feels right and when I do it will be AMAZING... 13 years of traveling has made it MY lifestyle and I still feel like I have only just begun... So many places to feel, so many languages to listen to, so many new connections to discover, so many different waves to surf...

Tomorrow is a new day and a day that brings me closer to seeing what exists over the branches for me, a day closer to an enlightened sense of patience that I earned through my stillness, one day closer to the knock of travel and opportunity at my door and ultimately one day closer to my spontaneous idea of a "pick a spot and GO" holiday...

This week's provocative words of adventurer Edmund Hillary : "It is not the mountain we conquer but ourselves".

xxRxx