Twirling to sleep

Where are you?

I am exactly where i am supposed to be.

I want to run and I want to fly. I want to sail away into the seas of my desire.

I don't know when I will arrive nor do I let the clock drive me. It is not the point.

The point is to live. LIVE EVERYTHING.

I live with passion. I live with trust. I live

with my eternal question being "what is my next source of inspiration?"...

Inspiration is what feeds my soul to grow its enlightened state of existence. To be connected is the ultimate gift. It reminds me every new day that I wake to one more and every night that I lay to another, that I am truly blessed...

Everyday I realize more and more how much power we have as humans to achieve we want for ourselves in our journey of life. Nothing is easy and nothing is hard. It is all what we choose it to be. We can choose to see a limit to our dreams or we can choose to dream BIG and seeing nothing but achieving them. If you can see it in your mind than its yours for the taking. Words I put together. Words that I believe in and live by. I sense a turn of a chapter directly in front of me. Mystery sits on one shoulder. Faith sits on the other. They hold hands appreciating one another keeping my love for life shining around me. A light so bright that fear or doubt can never get close. I believe in magic. I believe that words that can inspire are like magic so let me pull a rabbit out of my hat for you: "Don't rush into things, savor them more. Be more deliberate and specific about the plans that you are making, and in all that you do, let your your desire for feeling good be your guide"... This is simply gorgeous. Words that I want to put in a locket and carry around my neck where I can keep it closer to my heart everyday. What a brilliant reminder. Slow down so you can pay attention to what you are focusing on or maybe GROW a focus if you don't have one. Don't let numbers rule your spirit. let go of money, age, or time and what would you want to do, see, have and feel? Stay connected to THAT. I am not preaching. I am feeling and I am sharing. Why? Who knows? I do. I am supposed to be in this room and I have left the door open for you to come in and make your self at home. Morning is around the corner so its time for me to go explore my subconscious again...after all I cannot cheat myself of dreams that I earned after making it through another beautiful day of life. Tomorrow is a new opportunity with brand new possibilities and brings me one day further on this bridge I'm building to take me from where I am now to everywhere I want to be... There is much to be excited about it and I plan to undress it slowly so I can savor the taste of it...every beloved step of the way....

XxRxX

DROOLING...

Over these new Couture pieces that strutted down the Parisian runways this week.

The world of fashion really does fascinate me. I have a deep soft spot for the art of it within my heart. Granted I am not always decked out like Victoria Beckham (who's style I appreciate)... No in fact the simple tom-boy look in me is usually what you'll catch me in from day to day with attitude of course... Attitude is always apparent in my look, that is my signature if I was to have one. I am extremely down to earth and love to live laid back life full of quality and this is what inspires my day to day style. That said, I am a twin aka GEMINI so you can expect a flip side to that. The flip side in me does admire and lust for flawless construction, color, attitude and an over all message in pieces of my clothing after all I do work in fashion and entertainment ... I can shamelessly say that I can not afford all of my taste just yet but I am due to arrive at that train stop soon and when I get there I can assure you... I will arrive in style.

As an artist I am moved by collections from designers that inspire me and I will admit my personal taste comes at a pricey cost. I love translating their visions through my own by putting together pieces of wardrobe that represent ME. Its an exciting feeling when you feel good about how you look and the message you are sending through it.

There is a quote "Craft loves to wear clothes but TRUTH loves to go naked". I remember reading this years ago thinking, "Wow- that sums me right up in a sentence". The artist in me loves self expression by all means. Clothes and accessories play a huge part in that. The first thing people see when you walk into a room is not your personality, the kindness of your heart or your down to earth demeanor... they see your appearance. It is human nature to get a "taste" if you will, for the person based off of there appearance. It almost seems shallow but getting a feeling for the person is not judging the person, although many do that and THAT is what I find to be shallow. Its always nice when you look around and see someone who went out of there way to express themselves through the art of fashion. Appreciation for it does not mean I only have to be surrounded by this -definitely not- my lifestyle would NEVER allow that. (who's dressing up in Fiji while I'm there on a surf trip?!? get my point?)

It solely means I appreciate it...

On the flip side to that comes the "truth loves to go naked" part of me. I am all truth and nothing but the truth. In every aspect of my existence I live and breathe truth. I am true to myself even when it doesn't make others happy. I am honest with myself even if I am not happy with what I am being honest about. I am honest in my intentions towards every action and every human I come across in my life. Truth is nature. I live for nature. Truth is pure and so is my heart. I have been away from this room that I love to be in for weeks now. Trying to think of ways to get back in it. Every time I thought I found a way in I would come up short...hence the reason for a huge gap in my last entry. But. My reasons for it stem from the truth.

I know this is called a "blog" but for me this is really an online journal. Why I chose to post my inner thoughts on to a worldwide forum? Well for two reasons I suppose... First reason being because I love to share. Always have. I have nothing to hide. TRUTH GOES NAKED... so here I am. Second reason is because maybe in my sharing I might be able to inspire someone, make someone think or even laugh and that is just as positive, even if they are laughing at me.

This room could carry what ever I want in it. I cannot put words down unless they are asking to come out. They have to be born from some real thought, feeling and inspiration...

The first month of this new year is here and tonight we will have a wolf moon. This is when the full moon will be biggest and brightest for all to see as it will be in closest to us in orbit. Maybe that's why I'm feeling inspired today...

xxRxx

ONEonONE

Meet me in space... With it my heart on your sleeve, who could be so brave?

Its time to enter the room...

This sacred space that I don't try for but I yearn for...

With out my personal time and personal space I could never be complete.

I feel that it's an ABSOLUTE necessity to nurture yourself by going inside your mind to wander through your thoughts and ideas to think. plan. study. practice. and float in the clouds allowing them take you into a state of inspiration... It's a talent to be able to entertain yourself and its so wonderfully important to be able to enjoy your time alone in your own energy.

At this point in my life I could NEVER imagine not serving my mind, body and spirit the time and space they need to relax, explore and to grow...

Im really in an interesting place. A good place. Wandering through the hallways of my mind I FEEL. Yes I feel a lot actually... One of the very many wonderful things about being a Gemini (at least for me) is that I am able to have my Logic and my Emotions work together to do their best to live in harmony... Sometimes it can be really hard to make a decision but once I do, I never look back at the question, I proceed in the chosen direction with full intention. There is a buzz in the air and Im bouncing off of it. I am prepping myself for the end of summer and the action that will arrive with fall to knock at my door. I can also feel how much I am going to have to LOVE myself even more than I already do with a heavy state of busy on the horizon...

It's amazing really, it's almost as if this September is the start of the new year... well I suppose it is in the world I work in but I also feel this in my personal world.... and while I love the summer breeze that blows through my hair, it's time to walk the cement streets of metropolitan cities again while the leaves fall around me...

It's time for more acceleration. It's time for more progression. It's time for ELEVATION...

There is a sense of letting go in the air around me and because of it I can feel my power growing... self power and focus is an extremely effective way to climb the tower of life and gain the vision of success that you've painted in your ideas for yourself...

This is going to be a very energy demanding but strong personal growth period Im entering....

Within every new day I am grateful and feel like I am growing more and more of it as calender pages turn... I feel my awareness and I feel the warrior in me preparing for the trip in front of me, there is much coming my way before this year ends... I can FEEL it, I encourage it.

Im Ready.

xxxRx