DROOLING...

Over these new Couture pieces that strutted down the Parisian runways this week.

The world of fashion really does fascinate me. I have a deep soft spot for the art of it within my heart. Granted I am not always decked out like Victoria Beckham (who's style I appreciate)... No in fact the simple tom-boy look in me is usually what you'll catch me in from day to day with attitude of course... Attitude is always apparent in my look, that is my signature if I was to have one. I am extremely down to earth and love to live laid back life full of quality and this is what inspires my day to day style. That said, I am a twin aka GEMINI so you can expect a flip side to that. The flip side in me does admire and lust for flawless construction, color, attitude and an over all message in pieces of my clothing after all I do work in fashion and entertainment ... I can shamelessly say that I can not afford all of my taste just yet but I am due to arrive at that train stop soon and when I get there I can assure you... I will arrive in style.

As an artist I am moved by collections from designers that inspire me and I will admit my personal taste comes at a pricey cost. I love translating their visions through my own by putting together pieces of wardrobe that represent ME. Its an exciting feeling when you feel good about how you look and the message you are sending through it.

There is a quote "Craft loves to wear clothes but TRUTH loves to go naked". I remember reading this years ago thinking, "Wow- that sums me right up in a sentence". The artist in me loves self expression by all means. Clothes and accessories play a huge part in that. The first thing people see when you walk into a room is not your personality, the kindness of your heart or your down to earth demeanor... they see your appearance. It is human nature to get a "taste" if you will, for the person based off of there appearance. It almost seems shallow but getting a feeling for the person is not judging the person, although many do that and THAT is what I find to be shallow. Its always nice when you look around and see someone who went out of there way to express themselves through the art of fashion. Appreciation for it does not mean I only have to be surrounded by this -definitely not- my lifestyle would NEVER allow that. (who's dressing up in Fiji while I'm there on a surf trip?!? get my point?)

It solely means I appreciate it...

On the flip side to that comes the "truth loves to go naked" part of me. I am all truth and nothing but the truth. In every aspect of my existence I live and breathe truth. I am true to myself even when it doesn't make others happy. I am honest with myself even if I am not happy with what I am being honest about. I am honest in my intentions towards every action and every human I come across in my life. Truth is nature. I live for nature. Truth is pure and so is my heart. I have been away from this room that I love to be in for weeks now. Trying to think of ways to get back in it. Every time I thought I found a way in I would come up short...hence the reason for a huge gap in my last entry. But. My reasons for it stem from the truth.

I know this is called a "blog" but for me this is really an online journal. Why I chose to post my inner thoughts on to a worldwide forum? Well for two reasons I suppose... First reason being because I love to share. Always have. I have nothing to hide. TRUTH GOES NAKED... so here I am. Second reason is because maybe in my sharing I might be able to inspire someone, make someone think or even laugh and that is just as positive, even if they are laughing at me.

This room could carry what ever I want in it. I cannot put words down unless they are asking to come out. They have to be born from some real thought, feeling and inspiration...

The first month of this new year is here and tonight we will have a wolf moon. This is when the full moon will be biggest and brightest for all to see as it will be in closest to us in orbit. Maybe that's why I'm feeling inspired today...

xxRxx

The Magician

Finally. It makes so much sense. I realized how to explain something so important about me that I've always found difficult to put simply into words...

I was watching a beautiful surf movie last night... Everything about it was perfect, so perfect that it made me understand how my divided passion between the surfer girl and city girl in me are bonded and make perfect sense...

When I paddle out into the ocean and take that first duck dive under a wave, wiping away all that sat in my mind before it, I am so connected... Connected to myself, connected to the earth, connected to simply being alive... NATURE is how I stay grounded to TRUTH. Truth is Pure and I find sacredness with in it that I am completely devoted to….

When I’m taking the train in New York and walking through the streets of city with my music playing in my ears, looking at the art and style of so many different people around me, I am so connected. Connected to my dreams, connected to my fascination for imagination, connected to the creative girl in me who grew up KNOWING that the sky is NEVER the limit... there are none when it comes to how high I want to aim my desires... The CULTURE of City, Fashion & Art is how I stay connected to the DREAMER in me and I am able to communicate my inner VISIONS to the WORLD...

So there you have it. The Gemini twins in me explained. I could never lean too far over to one side with out feeling the other side tug at me for attention. I use to feel like I was always being pulled in 2 different directions and struggled with trying to fulfill both sides of me. These days I understand how there is no competition between my twins, they thrive off each other and have given me focused goals in my life to look forward to and achieve...

The autumn leaves are falling all around me and the air is turning crisp. It’s a cleansing period with nature. Time to slow things down a bit for reflection. Reflecting is one of my favorite places to send my mind…

I took a chance. A big chance. The Magician told me to... I already knew I was supposed to so I did. That chance gave me more than I even imagined I would have received by taking it. It was as if I was walking blindfolded and naked into a dark forest... Not seeing but FEELing my way through it. Trusting that I was protected by my instincts and by my KARMA... Once I got through the forest I took the blindfold off to discover that I was at the TOP of the world, starring at my dreams below... everything within my reach... I took a chance and proved to myself once more that TRUSTING in my choices will lead me to the many places I want to go in this life of mine...

Uncharted territory excites me… The mystery of the unknown... The questions JUST as much as the answers, my calling for constant discovery… I have a lustful relationship with expeditions … where will this take me? Somewhere that will be different from here. Change and its infinite beauty… I’m in love with her…

I know that I belong in the sky free to roam and explore… Passion is such an incredible gift, to feel… to crave… to desire… it burns inside of me and I know that my life’s purpose is to act on it and never, ever stray from it.

I don’t belong here. I don’t belong to ANYWHERE and THIS is my passport to the UNIVERSE… Freedom first comes in the heart and the soul... ALWAYS x

xxRxx

TICK TOCK...

Chapitre 1

Sunday Stillness in the morning feels like a cat purring closely into my ears...
I LOVE the stillness and silence of a beautiful Sunday morning... Its so worth sleeping early for on Saturday night
At the moment I feel like a cocktail. Mixed.
So many things brewing around me, the clock ticks, my mind swirls to the sound of it...
Where to go from here?... Everywhere of course.
What an interesting place to be experiencing.
There is no way around this, I have to embrace it, flow with it, and rise above it.
I DO NOT play with defeat, I only laugh at it.
This is my place to roll over and breathe.
To look up at the skies in my mind and float on clouds.
To feel the breeze between my hair and flirt with the sun that shines for me.
Some might wonder, Some don't care. This room is here for me to breathe and to stare..
Off into the depths of my heart and search... Explore...Discover...and celebrate the treasures that exist with in it.
Everything is Right you see... Im EXACTLY where I am supposed to be...
The universe would have it NO other way and I always meet her halfway...
Being a SURFER teaches you how to work with what you got, to flow with it and to get ahead of the sections that pop up in front of you
Of course the better the surfer, the smarter choices you make which result in better experiences to work with and a successful run at the end of the wave
Its all part of the process and its extremely motivating...
Fire added to Air goes BOOM
Im riding that explosion to the top where I can touch the stars...

Chapitre 2

The day of the solar eclipse brought fourth so many emotions inside me me...
Sunday's mixed cocktail became a serious blend of potent ingredients...
Im happy to report that I channeled all of it in a creative direction
I wrote in my journal in front of the ocean with the sun out high and bright
I sketched in the sand while the breeze whispered in my ears
And I worked on my new painting, feeling really good about the direction it's moving in
I feel good about the direction Im moving in...

Challenges can be a gift
I wanted to erase that last line because there are many things to consider that make a difference in when exactly they are a gift and when they are unfortunate... but i don't have to explain it all, i suppose its all very individual so i will keep my sentence here because i truly believe in it.. after all who is really listening???
ME

xxRxx