Focused Distractions

Sometimes we must take chances by throwing ourselves over the ledges in life that challenge us with the mystery of the unknown; facing any fears that may arise while in the pursuit of our passions.  Gaining a reward from your brave acts of action can come in many different ways. A definite reward is to be able to witness your self not except limits while going for what ever it is that your heart desires in spite of any challenges that step in your way.  Your self confidence and self love will be heightened and THAT i feel is one of the best rewards you can gain in life. 

Transitions are always upon us but I believe there are certain times in our lives when influential transitions that act as a statement piece present themselves to us and sometimes when you very least expect it.  I can sense in my heart this transition I'm entering is going to effect me in a very monumental and healthy way.  

Although this transition is providing me with so much mystery that's forcing me to be a braver, stronger and more focused me; im embracing every second of this moment. I know and truly feel in my heart that i am exactly where im supposed to be, doing exactly what i am supposed to and the results from it are going to light up my shine to be brighter than ever before.  I'm encouraging her to come out and play.

With so many life thoughts floating around my mind, my focus is being summoned to come on deck and start performing with extra intensity.  There is so much to accomplish, so much to achieve... I only have to continue to work hard and believe...

This month is a powerful month in my life. Its my birthday month.  My instincts are pinching at me and telling me to be ready. Be ready for the force that's coming my way to redecorate my life, be ready to enjoy the change because its the gift from my choices I've made and the hard work I've put in over the years.  I am also being asked to be patient in the process.  Don't worry about when its coming just know that it is upon me and be ready. Being prepared for your life is so important.  

So here I am gearing myself with preparation for the unknown to come out and reveal itself to me... I cannot wait to discover what life is going to offer me around this big corner,,, The oneness of my mind and heart are excited for me so I know it's going to be really, really good... 

xXRXx

NowNess

My dreams kept me awake. I have been absent from my love here. I knew it was only a matter of time. Quieting my mind and entering my heart, I need to be alone with her...

She's been stringing at me, asking me to please come back into this room where we love each other with NOTHING else to feel but the bliss of our ONEness...

I close my eyes to see what exists in my life. 

I open them to appreciate it all.

I love where I am. I love where I am going. 

My mantra each day is to "MOVE LIKE WATER"

The moon rises and offers me light to stand in. I look at the glowing space that surrounds me and understand this is all so very meant to be...

Nature never stands still... maybe this is why I am so in love with her...

Nothing is ever the same. Change is always on the horizon. We humans are a form of Nature and yet so many find it so difficult to deal with change. Interesting...

I can't imagine my life with out all of the changes I have encountered. I have never believed in LIFE offering me any security. There is NO security that comes from outside of your heart and the relationship you have with her.

I trust in my heart and let her truth determine my route. She will never let me down. Challenges have and will continue to rise.

How else would you be able to know who you are?

When they come I am forced to take a bigger look around.

I welcome that view.

Wrangling my loud thoughts and carefully planting the flowers I want to grow in my garden. Its all up to ME. I look above and know their is space in the sky for my light so I push past the rolling clouds to shine brighter. There is so much power to find in yourself if you can just keep an open path from your mind to your heart. They are the best of friends and when they are working together in harmony, well your world becomes almost magical...

I am no expert. I am simply me. I only want to know how to be the master of MY days and look forward to everything I can learn from within them. I look inside to find the truth then I surround myself with it. Fear is the opposite of Courage. Sometimes you have to fight to stay on your side. Fight hard and fight brave. Love will always save the day.

I've opened the windows to feel the breeze come through my room... I welcome her soft, velvet like touch on my skin... She's taking me with her and I am ready to go. I don't know what's around this corner but I do know that I won't stop until I get there....

Inspirations are so important.

I am walking through my day dreams and building them a bridge to my reality. They belong together as one. THIS is my life. THIS is my art.

Never stop believing. One foot goes in front of the other. Take your time, its a gift so don't waste it. I take a sip of water and drink it slowly. There is much to look forward to. There is much to learn and discover. The future is one minute ahead of this moment. Its time to go....

"Everything that is new or uncommon raises a pleasure in the imagination, because it fills the soul with an agreeable surprise, gratifies its curiosity, and gives it an idea of which it was not before possessed."

XxRxX

CALLING THE SHOTS

I'm staying awake to listen to the dark... Its the ending of a chapter and I can feel the seasons changing. I don't know what day it is nor could I tell you the time... I'm spinning with my eyes wide open and there are colors all around me... One shade for every emotion that is swimming inside of my heart at the moment... She beats so fast, she is protecting me always... she whispers to my mind "do not worry, I am your soulmate and I will always be here for you"... I am blessed to have her, I could never want anything more than her loyalty and love.

Its so important to LOVE yourself. This is the ONLY way you can ever truly love anyone else. To love someone else is journey, a very important journey that at it's best will grow you and at it's worst it will attempt to destroy you... I absolutely believe that there is a sacred kind of love for everyone who doesn't stop believing that there is. I also believe that in this day and age its healthy to experience a variety of experiences loving and being loved by different people. How else can we really know what we want and what we don't want. It's so wonderful the feeling of LOVE when its mutual and elevating. Its horrible when that same love turns into a break up and all of what was before, that made you feel so good are the very things that hurts you he most when you have no choice but to remember all of it...

Break up's. Yuck. Never fun. For either the heart breaker or the heart broken... It's almost as if everyone has to experience it at some point to be human. Have you ever tried to embrace the pain that can step from love? To stop yourself in the very moment of a tortured heart and be still so you can absorb the beauty of FEELING? It is a gift to be able to have your heart broken because it means that you were able to open it to LOVE and to be able to LOVE is the ultimate gift in life. Its a complete turn around when you can embrace that pain and actually I think it displays a sense of control that you posses over the situation rather than it controlling you.

Work it with, go with it, spin with it. Don't let it take you from YOU, let it bring you closer to YOU... it can if you allow it too...

Its obvious through my writing that I believe that we posses the power to live the way we want to live, rise to and above the emotions that surface in us, manipulate our destines by the choices we make and the way we view life and ultimately own our life rather than having it own us...

I feel the leaves loosening up preparing to fall. Fall... reminds me of so many different and important times Ive experienced in my life... Some of which challenge my emotions at the moment but I'm not surrendering to the challenge... I am going to look deeper into it and send it away properly. Its official. It's time for certain things that I cherished to be repositioned and clear my path so I can make room for AMAZINGness to step in front of me... I deserve it and I have the POWER to make that happen.

My whole life I have been writing. There were times when I would be sitting somewhere waiting perhaps in a line, for a friend-whatever- but I remember in those moments I would search for a piece of paper and pen because I had things that I just had to get out and put in front of my eyes to see... Communication is my gift. Translating through my hands is my passion. When I write I am forcing (with pleasure) my eyes to be confronted with my thoughts, ideas, goals and emotions... The minute it leaves my mind through my hands and becomes visible for me to see it becomes a commitment. A commitment to myself to witness and grow from my entries from the feelings and determination in my words. The biggest let down I could ever feel is me letting myself down. That's why I work so hard to make sure that I never do...

I know that as long as I continue to keep unwrapping events in my life as GIFTS regardless if they make me feel happy or sad, regardless if i understand them or are questioned by them... I will be able to look back and smile at the RICH life I have been lucky to have lived...

"Its easier to die than to LOVE... that's why I go through the trouble of living my LOVE"

xCommitedx

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