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Meet me in space... With it my heart on your sleeve, who could be so brave?

Its time to enter the room...

This sacred space that I don't try for but I yearn for...

With out my personal time and personal space I could never be complete.

I feel that it's an ABSOLUTE necessity to nurture yourself by going inside your mind to wander through your thoughts and ideas to think. plan. study. practice. and float in the clouds allowing them take you into a state of inspiration... It's a talent to be able to entertain yourself and its so wonderfully important to be able to enjoy your time alone in your own energy.

At this point in my life I could NEVER imagine not serving my mind, body and spirit the time and space they need to relax, explore and to grow...

Im really in an interesting place. A good place. Wandering through the hallways of my mind I FEEL. Yes I feel a lot actually... One of the very many wonderful things about being a Gemini (at least for me) is that I am able to have my Logic and my Emotions work together to do their best to live in harmony... Sometimes it can be really hard to make a decision but once I do, I never look back at the question, I proceed in the chosen direction with full intention. There is a buzz in the air and Im bouncing off of it. I am prepping myself for the end of summer and the action that will arrive with fall to knock at my door. I can also feel how much I am going to have to LOVE myself even more than I already do with a heavy state of busy on the horizon...

It's amazing really, it's almost as if this September is the start of the new year... well I suppose it is in the world I work in but I also feel this in my personal world.... and while I love the summer breeze that blows through my hair, it's time to walk the cement streets of metropolitan cities again while the leaves fall around me...

It's time for more acceleration. It's time for more progression. It's time for ELEVATION...

There is a sense of letting go in the air around me and because of it I can feel my power growing... self power and focus is an extremely effective way to climb the tower of life and gain the vision of success that you've painted in your ideas for yourself...

This is going to be a very energy demanding but strong personal growth period Im entering....

Within every new day I am grateful and feel like I am growing more and more of it as calender pages turn... I feel my awareness and I feel the warrior in me preparing for the trip in front of me, there is much coming my way before this year ends... I can FEEL it, I encourage it.

Im Ready.

xxxRx

CALLING THE SHOTS

I'm staying awake to listen to the dark... Its the ending of a chapter and I can feel the seasons changing. I don't know what day it is nor could I tell you the time... I'm spinning with my eyes wide open and there are colors all around me... One shade for every emotion that is swimming inside of my heart at the moment... She beats so fast, she is protecting me always... she whispers to my mind "do not worry, I am your soulmate and I will always be here for you"... I am blessed to have her, I could never want anything more than her loyalty and love.

Its so important to LOVE yourself. This is the ONLY way you can ever truly love anyone else. To love someone else is journey, a very important journey that at it's best will grow you and at it's worst it will attempt to destroy you... I absolutely believe that there is a sacred kind of love for everyone who doesn't stop believing that there is. I also believe that in this day and age its healthy to experience a variety of experiences loving and being loved by different people. How else can we really know what we want and what we don't want. It's so wonderful the feeling of LOVE when its mutual and elevating. Its horrible when that same love turns into a break up and all of what was before, that made you feel so good are the very things that hurts you he most when you have no choice but to remember all of it...

Break up's. Yuck. Never fun. For either the heart breaker or the heart broken... It's almost as if everyone has to experience it at some point to be human. Have you ever tried to embrace the pain that can step from love? To stop yourself in the very moment of a tortured heart and be still so you can absorb the beauty of FEELING? It is a gift to be able to have your heart broken because it means that you were able to open it to LOVE and to be able to LOVE is the ultimate gift in life. Its a complete turn around when you can embrace that pain and actually I think it displays a sense of control that you posses over the situation rather than it controlling you.

Work it with, go with it, spin with it. Don't let it take you from YOU, let it bring you closer to YOU... it can if you allow it too...

Its obvious through my writing that I believe that we posses the power to live the way we want to live, rise to and above the emotions that surface in us, manipulate our destines by the choices we make and the way we view life and ultimately own our life rather than having it own us...

I feel the leaves loosening up preparing to fall. Fall... reminds me of so many different and important times Ive experienced in my life... Some of which challenge my emotions at the moment but I'm not surrendering to the challenge... I am going to look deeper into it and send it away properly. Its official. It's time for certain things that I cherished to be repositioned and clear my path so I can make room for AMAZINGness to step in front of me... I deserve it and I have the POWER to make that happen.

My whole life I have been writing. There were times when I would be sitting somewhere waiting perhaps in a line, for a friend-whatever- but I remember in those moments I would search for a piece of paper and pen because I had things that I just had to get out and put in front of my eyes to see... Communication is my gift. Translating through my hands is my passion. When I write I am forcing (with pleasure) my eyes to be confronted with my thoughts, ideas, goals and emotions... The minute it leaves my mind through my hands and becomes visible for me to see it becomes a commitment. A commitment to myself to witness and grow from my entries from the feelings and determination in my words. The biggest let down I could ever feel is me letting myself down. That's why I work so hard to make sure that I never do...

I know that as long as I continue to keep unwrapping events in my life as GIFTS regardless if they make me feel happy or sad, regardless if i understand them or are questioned by them... I will be able to look back and smile at the RICH life I have been lucky to have lived...

"Its easier to die than to LOVE... that's why I go through the trouble of living my LOVE"

xCommitedx

xxxROXANNExxx

BIRDS OF PARADISE

What an amazingly wonderful place to be... A HIGHER state of consciousness...

A sensation that keeps all positive and uplifted, through trials and tribulations... the mind stays clear, focused and ready to make moves... The spirit is bright for all to see, the soul is alive and breathing the body through any areas of discomfort, pushing it carefully into a place of STRENGTH...

Love is all around me, I had the most wonderful weekend with some of the worlds most beautiful spirits that I am proud to call my friends and family... I danced my hips off of my body to incredible musik that I swear I could feel deep inside my inner existence...

Music... Wow. Music... Paves the road for me to dance through my life... Keeps the backdrop colorful and encouraging... Music has glued together so many pieces of my picture, gratefully no longer a puzzle but still so offering so much fantastic mystery... I love mystery, it allows for the mind to wander and to grow ideas, to push fourth direction and strive for something. HOPE.

New York. My heart. My home. Ive said it here before but I'm going to say it again. I was NOT born in New York BUT I WAS BORN TO LIVE IN NEW YORK and that is why I did for some very special years of my life. New York is the gateway to the world and I am so grateful for my connection to it and for it's connection to me... It has proved to me that when I FEEL I belong somewhere, I ABSOLUTELY DO. I know that I have more territory to cover when it comes to adopting different cities in the world to call home. To love where your at is so important. There is not one day I do not look outside my window to see the sun and ocean with thoughts of pure gratefulness. I LOVE my home. I'm not stopping here though. I have my heart set on bringing another beautiful city in particular into my home life and I will get what I want if it's meant for me to have. My adventure is clear. I'm on the move. The world offers up so many flavors and I have a HUGE appetite for it...

Culture is such a gorgeous thing and to BE cultured is a blessing... To be in touch with the world and to live with no judgement is one of the keys that will unlock the doors in life and allow for the most amazing experiences... Looking at life from Birds eye view allows me to see all that surrounds me, not just focusing on what is in front of me or what Ive left behind...It keeps me in harmony with what I cannot see or understand. This feeds my faith in my instincts and my instincts are my reliable wing men on this journey I'm on so without perfect LOVE and perfect TRUST in them I would be scattered...

I feel like I have grown a deeper fascination for life which allows me to look at things in a different shade of light than the "norm"... I can look at my challenges straight in the eyes and KNOW that I will not be defeated. I accept their battles for they offer me so much wisdom and strength and I gain more personal respect for myself when I conquer them... To have a deep personal respect and sincere LOVE for yourself is THE key to staying connected in MIND, BODY, and SPIRIT... once you gain that balance... well, then you can fly over rainbows if you want to... Clean out your closet, make room for change, keep your feet on the ground but your mind in the sky... Grow taller in your ideas and let your heart be as deep as the ocean...

Step up on YOUR stage and be your own audience, the show must GO on...

It's the simple things in life that offer the most beauty and substance... Somehow the simple things in life are the most complicated for most to grasp and understand... Crack that code and the party begins... I FEEL the wind turning in a direction that will let my wings glide through the sky and birds will applause my flight. This is all what YOU want it to be and that is the absolute TRUTH. I don't read "self help" books (nothing wrong with them just not my thing) instead I close my eyes, fall backwards into my dreams and allow them to push me forward...

They have never let me down, they have only taken me HIGHER and opened up so much room for life to offer me the secrets and treasures of how special it can be... Bring your treasures to YOU, they are waiting for you, perhaps OVER a RAINBOW... come and bring them to LIFE... .

I'm giggling at the thought of how much fun I'm having...

Xx ROXY xX