Thursday, December 31, 2009

Once in a BLUE MOON...




Triumph.

That is the word that comes to my mind when I think about this passing year, 2009 in review... Many challenges were presented, BIG ones, but none that took hold of me, all of which I took hold of and gracefully moved them out of my way. For so many in the world this year might be able to say the same, or at the very least that they survived through the difficult times that they were faced. The age of innocence is over. We humans strive to create MORE. BIGGER. BETTER. FASTER. and A LOT of it. As a result we are becoming less satisfied at a faster speed and our appetite is growing even faster...

One of my brothers pointed out how much times have changed when back in the day a movie like "FOOTLOOSE" was a nominated hit. This was a story about a city boy who comes to a small town where rock music and dancing has been banned so he rebels and dances his fancy footwork through the movie and creates a following eventually winning the town over. What a concept. These days we need much, much more to feel that our $11 movie ticket is justified. We require 3-D options, starring actors who make 20 million or more, sex, tragedy, twists and turns, expensive cars, and flawless special effects... I sometimes really wish we could still be that simple to fall in love with a movie like Footloose again. Its important for my work, for my inspiration and for my growing knowledge to look into the past... to learn and sometimes just to simply reflect on what went down before today. Thinking back into this past year I simply feel grateful. I really do feel like I am living mostly everyday to it's fullest, sometimes that even means doing NOTHING but relaxing and daydreaming.
Balance.
Something that a lot of us Americans have a hard time doing. We live in a powerhouse of a country and I am so appreciative for the amazing opportunities to succeed that live at my finger tips because of it. That said, those kind of opportunities are NOT everything. I really feel that my citizenship belongs to the WORLD. Capturing life's simple and quality moments in life are sacred opportunities that are so vital to a healthy and happy life. At least to this girl they are. When I lay down to sleep at night I lay with a smile in my heart, taking in the awareness that I am rich. Rich because my success is truly my journey and NOT the destinations I will arrive to. I was born to succeed in this life. To accomplish the goals I have on my list of desires. I work at it on a daily basis and there is no question that I will see it all come to fruition. I believe that part of why I am self assured in that department is because along with my hard work and focus comes my love and appreciation for LIFE. In my mind LIFE has nothing to do with money. Nothing to do with material objects. Nothing to to with status or titles. Life is the natural treasures that exist daily in our lives if we allow them to and pay attention to them when they do. I took the last week of the last year and the first week of the new year off to give respect to all of my hard work through 2009 and the work that I have in front of me in 2010. I took this time to embrace LIFE. Celebrating the Blue Moon that blessed us with her presence as we said good-bye to 2009 and toasted to 2010. Sitting on the beautiful beaches of an island I have the privilege to call home, with my best friends relaxing, laughing and appreciating everything. The only resolution for 2010 I have is to continue to stay graceful and focused through any challenges that may arise, to continue to trust my instincts and to continue to allow my passion for LIFE to be the ruler of my days.

Promises that really matter and that I KNOW I can keep..

Bonne Année and cheers to a sexy new year...

xROXANNEx


Sunday, December 6, 2009

Mr.






























Mr.
My latest obsession.
He is the perfect example of my mood.
He sways from one side so smoothly to the other casting a dreamy spell with every movement.
The magic that comes from his sound allows me to slow down the world around me while I keep my pace forward. Some might say their life is a movie, mine is a non stop music video, each new song spinning a new color in the mix changing the mood completely inspiring me in a new direction, mood and adventure... By the way if your wondering who "he" is, Mr. is one of my favorite songs from Smoke City's album Hero's of Nature. A song that is repeating continuously as I write this. Songs that effect my mind and heart are MORE than a mere song, they LIVE and inspire me just as a human could... Mmmm... J'aime ma musique...

There is something peeking around the corner at me at the moment... something that is enticing me to want to play. I can see a stage of evolution staring at me dead in the eyes with a smile on its face saying "welcome"... I'm skipping to it like a kid going to play hop scotch with her mates after school, excited and so READY for it.

Its time for some FUN. I practice so much discipline in my everyday life, loving all of what I accomplish before I sleep at night that now as the year comes to an end, I know I have earned some serious time to feed my spirit by kicking back, getting my surf on in WARM water and laugh my ass off with my friends...this is EXACTLY what I am about to do..

With the year closing in, I'm feeling really proud of myself. Everyday I am seeing more and more how my hard work, discipline and sheer determination is unfolding BIG accomplishments... So much change has taken place in this year for me, powerful change that continues to grow me in the very direction I desire myself to grow. Time is moving faster and there is not one day that goes by that I do not fully embrace with complete gratefulness. Focus is such a powerful talent. It's so amazing that if one really puts the discipline behind what they focus on achieving, with out failure, it will eventually come to fruition...

Not many today utilize the power of focus and especially stay loyal to the discipline needed to back it up... Hence my reasoning for finding discipline so sexy... it takes the rare and STRONG to practice those two elements in life. The rare and strong are who I gravitate to more so now than ever in my life. Funny... I'm sure many find it interesting that a free spirited Gemini like myself would be so into discipline... Ive always enjoyed taking people by surprise including myself from time to time. Balance is the KEY to success in life. With all the free spirit spontaneity in me, there also exists a very "stay on your game", focused girl driven by ambition and passion to create a masterpiece of a life and she helps to keep me walking forward on that line in the middle...

I am more tuned into the frequency of my life than ever. It's almost like a feeling of dieing and returning to life with so much appreciation to be alive. I want to continue taking full advantage of growing my garden of life with the most beautiful, colorful and interesting accomplishments and memories. If only more people would realize that life does not have to be: your a kid, you grow up, you settle down, you die...

What a waste of such a gift.

In MY life its more like your reborn in THIS life, you AND your life are blank canvases to create how ever much amazingness you wish to create inside of yourself and in the world around you... live with ambition. grow your wisdom and skills while keeping your youth... then one day when your physical body comes to an end, you can look back and be so proud of all that you are and all that you have left behind...

I see it no other way and I LIVE it exactly that way...

Everyday is a non stop celebration, my Louboutins are on the way and now I am ready for my glass of champagne...

xxxRxxx