Thursday, December 31, 2009

Once in a BLUE MOON...




Triumph.

That is the word that comes to my mind when I think about this passing year, 2009 in review... Many challenges were presented, BIG ones, but none that took hold of me, all of which I took hold of and gracefully moved them out of my way. For so many in the world this year might be able to say the same, or at the very least that they survived through the difficult times that they were faced. The age of innocence is over. We humans strive to create MORE. BIGGER. BETTER. FASTER. and A LOT of it. As a result we are becoming less satisfied at a faster speed and our appetite is growing even faster...

One of my brothers pointed out how much times have changed when back in the day a movie like "FOOTLOOSE" was a nominated hit. This was a story about a city boy who comes to a small town where rock music and dancing has been banned so he rebels and dances his fancy footwork through the movie and creates a following eventually winning the town over. What a concept. These days we need much, much more to feel that our $11 movie ticket is justified. We require 3-D options, starring actors who make 20 million or more, sex, tragedy, twists and turns, expensive cars, and flawless special effects... I sometimes really wish we could still be that simple to fall in love with a movie like Footloose again. Its important for my work, for my inspiration and for my growing knowledge to look into the past... to learn and sometimes just to simply reflect on what went down before today. Thinking back into this past year I simply feel grateful. I really do feel like I am living mostly everyday to it's fullest, sometimes that even means doing NOTHING but relaxing and daydreaming.
Balance.
Something that a lot of us Americans have a hard time doing. We live in a powerhouse of a country and I am so appreciative for the amazing opportunities to succeed that live at my finger tips because of it. That said, those kind of opportunities are NOT everything. I really feel that my citizenship belongs to the WORLD. Capturing life's simple and quality moments in life are sacred opportunities that are so vital to a healthy and happy life. At least to this girl they are. When I lay down to sleep at night I lay with a smile in my heart, taking in the awareness that I am rich. Rich because my success is truly my journey and NOT the destinations I will arrive to. I was born to succeed in this life. To accomplish the goals I have on my list of desires. I work at it on a daily basis and there is no question that I will see it all come to fruition. I believe that part of why I am self assured in that department is because along with my hard work and focus comes my love and appreciation for LIFE. In my mind LIFE has nothing to do with money. Nothing to do with material objects. Nothing to to with status or titles. Life is the natural treasures that exist daily in our lives if we allow them to and pay attention to them when they do. I took the last week of the last year and the first week of the new year off to give respect to all of my hard work through 2009 and the work that I have in front of me in 2010. I took this time to embrace LIFE. Celebrating the Blue Moon that blessed us with her presence as we said good-bye to 2009 and toasted to 2010. Sitting on the beautiful beaches of an island I have the privilege to call home, with my best friends relaxing, laughing and appreciating everything. The only resolution for 2010 I have is to continue to stay graceful and focused through any challenges that may arise, to continue to trust my instincts and to continue to allow my passion for LIFE to be the ruler of my days.

Promises that really matter and that I KNOW I can keep..

Bonne Année and cheers to a sexy new year...

xROXANNEx


Sunday, December 6, 2009

Mr.






























Mr.
My latest obsession.
He is the perfect example of my mood.
He sways from one side so smoothly to the other casting a dreamy spell with every movement.
The magic that comes from his sound allows me to slow down the world around me while I keep my pace forward. Some might say their life is a movie, mine is a non stop music video, each new song spinning a new color in the mix changing the mood completely inspiring me in a new direction, mood and adventure... By the way if your wondering who "he" is, Mr. is one of my favorite songs from Smoke City's album Hero's of Nature. A song that is repeating continuously as I write this. Songs that effect my mind and heart are MORE than a mere song, they LIVE and inspire me just as a human could... Mmmm... J'aime ma musique...

There is something peeking around the corner at me at the moment... something that is enticing me to want to play. I can see a stage of evolution staring at me dead in the eyes with a smile on its face saying "welcome"... I'm skipping to it like a kid going to play hop scotch with her mates after school, excited and so READY for it.

Its time for some FUN. I practice so much discipline in my everyday life, loving all of what I accomplish before I sleep at night that now as the year comes to an end, I know I have earned some serious time to feed my spirit by kicking back, getting my surf on in WARM water and laugh my ass off with my friends...this is EXACTLY what I am about to do..

With the year closing in, I'm feeling really proud of myself. Everyday I am seeing more and more how my hard work, discipline and sheer determination is unfolding BIG accomplishments... So much change has taken place in this year for me, powerful change that continues to grow me in the very direction I desire myself to grow. Time is moving faster and there is not one day that goes by that I do not fully embrace with complete gratefulness. Focus is such a powerful talent. It's so amazing that if one really puts the discipline behind what they focus on achieving, with out failure, it will eventually come to fruition...

Not many today utilize the power of focus and especially stay loyal to the discipline needed to back it up... Hence my reasoning for finding discipline so sexy... it takes the rare and STRONG to practice those two elements in life. The rare and strong are who I gravitate to more so now than ever in my life. Funny... I'm sure many find it interesting that a free spirited Gemini like myself would be so into discipline... Ive always enjoyed taking people by surprise including myself from time to time. Balance is the KEY to success in life. With all the free spirit spontaneity in me, there also exists a very "stay on your game", focused girl driven by ambition and passion to create a masterpiece of a life and she helps to keep me walking forward on that line in the middle...

I am more tuned into the frequency of my life than ever. It's almost like a feeling of dieing and returning to life with so much appreciation to be alive. I want to continue taking full advantage of growing my garden of life with the most beautiful, colorful and interesting accomplishments and memories. If only more people would realize that life does not have to be: your a kid, you grow up, you settle down, you die...

What a waste of such a gift.

In MY life its more like your reborn in THIS life, you AND your life are blank canvases to create how ever much amazingness you wish to create inside of yourself and in the world around you... live with ambition. grow your wisdom and skills while keeping your youth... then one day when your physical body comes to an end, you can look back and be so proud of all that you are and all that you have left behind...

I see it no other way and I LIVE it exactly that way...

Everyday is a non stop celebration, my Louboutins are on the way and now I am ready for my glass of champagne...

xxxRxxx










Friday, November 20, 2009

*MASTERPIECING*










I remember everything so perfect from this exact time last year. It's almost strange to be here again on the calender and have the year that is almost to end replay in my head so vividly... so much has happened... Life's roller coaster has served me up a decent ride, filling me up with gratefulness for all the opportunities and challenges I have encountered through out it... my engines are revved and I'm ready to go...

There is much talent in "being ready" just as much as there is as being in pursuit of a goal.

TIMING IS EVERYTHING.

I have complete faith that time is on MY side. If one does not have respect for the process aka the journey, then the process will not respect the person. When that happens time starts to works against you and who would not want time in their corner??? She is my partner in my facination dream...

The learning process within my journey has been and continues to be PRICELESS. It's nice to stop and smell the flowers along the way. To look up and count the stars in the sky, to listen to the singing birds and crashing waves. Literally and figuratively speaking. I never, ever stop to take in the magic along the way because the destination will be reached eventually but to savor the taste of the process makes it all so much better...

My thoughts have been looking like a kaleidoscope lately. Bits and pieces of color and shapes swiming all over my mind that ultimately all play apart of a big, beautiful picture. What I am working on is to organize them in a fashion where I can execute more fluidly. This month is coming to an end and I can feel A LOT more accomplishments awaiting me before the year turns over into the new. I am filled with a lot of power and thus arming myself with the ability to cross things off my wish list...

There is still much mystery lurking in areas of my world that entice my thoughts to stay fixed on them... I'm grateful. I love the element of surprise. I only have to continue living with patience to see the truth behind the mysteries unfold. Being a surfer teaches you a lot of patience and also how to make smarter choices.... I feel I am about to embark on a BIG next chapter in my world as a result of my patience and the choices I've made and continue to make.

Feel. That's what I do. I am not hoping. I am not thinking. I am feeling what I do next and what will happen next. Ultimately time reveals all. BUT. I have always said that I believe you can manipulate your destiny if you choose to... Without question that is what I do every single day of my life...

I am manipulating my beautiful DESTINY...After all I am an artist... my life is my biggest masterpiece...

xRx

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

DOUBLE SIXES






The power of challenges are incredible. They are truly gifts. They force the mind to work in ways it normally would not have to. In some cases, pending the soul and character of the person being challenged, it can result in honor and achievements... in other cases it can result in disgrace and failure...

The past 2 months have double, no, triple proved to me that I am heard in this universe and that the challenges I get starred down by are in fact amazing tools towards the success of my journey. Yeah some may laugh at me and my depth when I speak this language and there are some that are intrigued and inspired.. And for those that are, apart from for myself, I will share a dose of my experience in the last week for you...

I had to go. I just had to get there and I didn't know how I was going to make sense of it but I knew in the depths of myself that I belonged no where else but there at that exact time. From the day of the invite, to the day of the discovering that I was going to be provided a way to be there and in full style, I had no idea how it was going to work out I just KNEW that there was NO way it was not going to. I asked for something before this whole thing came to me (i even wrote it out)... Before I knew it, more than I could have imagined came out giving me what I asked for along with loads of excitement and real quality in many forms...

ITS THE MOST LIBERATING AND BRAVE FEELING to FEEL YOUR WAY THROUGH LIFE...
tune out your mind, quite your heart, close your eyes and dance forward KNOWING that your direction results in a sweet outcome. Its almost as if you can be rewarded for being so brave and pure in this life by following your truth... AKA your instincts...

I walked away from my trip to "wonderland" with the most amazing memories to which I will never forget for the rest of my life, two new wonderful friendships that will be long standing in my life, the mystery of a new comer who stunned me with style and who I have a strong feeling, will play a valuable role in my life and last but not least... some healthy breathing room that has now inspired me so heavily, my creative forces are clawing to come out and play...

I'M GAME AND I'M IN. THE TIME IS NOW.

because i CHOOSE to live NOW I was able to capture the amazing experiences I have gained in my life and especially most recently. NOW is where I want to BE always...
Life has proven to me that living any other way is to be cutting myself short from the potential to be TRULY living... what is the point of all of this if you are not taking FULL advantage of all that you can grow with in it. I have zero intention to do anything BUT exactly that. I fuel my fire and from this I will fill my hot air balloon to explore the world how I would like to do it. When doubts start to appear I challenge them back. I destroy them. I have no mercy.

To be able to be challenged but hold COMPLETE TRUST in the making of your good fate through your faith and hard working devotion is not easy but is THE ONLY way to really LIVE in my opinion...

My opinion... yes my opinion can be quite interesting from time to time...

This time, I'm sharing my opinion because I believe that if there is anyone out there listening to the scribbles on my mind... you might be inspired from them. and that thought alone inspires me....

the recycling of goodness. FOREVER.

This blog was dedicated to two special humans journeying from West to East at the moment.
You both are in my heart always. And. always remember how I operate for my family ;)

CHEERS

Xx R xX

Monday, November 2, 2009

How soon is NOW





Sitting up before laying down… Some woman told me today when getting my coffee “Have a Blissful day”…. And that is exactly what today has been for me, a day full of blissful vibrations… When she said this to me I thought “what a beautiful thing to wish upon someone”… perhaps if we all wished for more BLISS upon the world we would experience it more in our daily lives…

The wind roars outside my window, I encourage her to let it all out. I love to listen to her as she speaks to the trees… They laugh so hard their leaves fall to the ground… and I love when she encourages the Sea... She gets her so excited the Sea applauds with walls of water bending over into crashing waves… Mmmm... waves.... What magic and music Nature provides for us… Let go of hearing and then you will finally be able to LISTEN to all that surrounds you…

I have the itch to create, to take in knowledge, to feel a spurt of internal growth... its out there, a game of hide and go seek and I am seeking it. Like Pink Floyd said... "taking away the moments that make up a dull day"...

I love to write. To empty the pockets of my mind and hang my coat up where I can see it. A liberating experience over and over again… Who does not want to experience that?? I love when a doubt or question with fear as the root of it tries to step my way… All I have to do is confront it by literally spelling it out before my eyes and before I know it, my questions and fears become history…

This week marks the beginning of a new month and 30 new days of opportunity to be had. I love when a new month starts with a FULL MOON. The full moon offers up a chance to end things and prepare yourself for the new. Im finishing old tasks today and I've already made my list of what I want to achieve.... I am going to read it every single day this month. I plan on making this month an extra ordinary month of progress, achievement and loads of fun ;)

My horoscope for the week left me with: This week bear in mind this old and very true adage: “Don’t be discouraged. It’s often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock.”

I'm taking that one to heart and running to the bank with it.

XxRoxyxx


Saturday, October 17, 2009

The Magician




Finally. It makes so much sense. I realized how to explain something so important about me that I've always found difficult to put simply into words...

I was watching a beautiful surf movie last night... Everything about it was perfect, so perfect that it made me understand how my divided passion between the surfer girl and city girl in me are bonded and make perfect sense...

When I paddle out into the ocean and take that first duck dive under a wave, wiping away all that sat in my mind before it, I am so connected... Connected to myself, connected to the earth, connected to simply being alive... NATURE is how I stay grounded to TRUTH. Truth is Pure and I find sacredness with in it that I am completely devoted to….

When I’m taking the train in New York and walking through the streets of city with my music playing in my ears, looking at the art and style of so many different people around me, I am so connected. Connected to my dreams, connected to my fascination for imagination, connected to the creative girl in me who grew up KNOWING that the sky is NEVER the limit... there are none when it comes to how high I want to aim my desires... The CULTURE of City, Fashion & Art is how I stay connected to the DREAMER in me and I am able to communicate my inner VISIONS to the WORLD...

So there you have it. The Gemini twins in me explained. I could never lean too far over to one side with out feeling the other side tug at me for attention. I use to feel like I was always being pulled in 2 different directions and struggled with trying to fulfill both sides of me. These days I understand how there is no competition between my twins, they thrive off each other and have given me focused goals in my life to look forward to and achieve...

The autumn leaves are falling all around me and the air is turning crisp. It’s a cleansing period with nature. Time to slow things down a bit for reflection. Reflecting is one of my favorite places to send my mind…

I took a chance. A big chance. The Magician told me to... I already knew I was supposed to so I did. That chance gave me more than I even imagined I would have received by taking it. It was as if I was walking blindfolded and naked into a dark forest... Not seeing but FEELing my way through it. Trusting that I was protected by my instincts and by my KARMA... Once I got through the forest I took the blindfold off to discover that I was at the TOP of the world, starring at my dreams below... everything within my reach... I took a chance and proved to myself once more that TRUSTING in my choices will lead me to the many places I want to go in this life of mine...

Uncharted territory excites me… The mystery of the unknown... The questions JUST as much as the answers, my calling for constant discovery… I have a lustful relationship with expeditions … where will this take me? Somewhere that will be different from here. Change and its infinite beauty… I’m in love with her…

I know that I belong in the sky free to roam and explore… Passion is such an incredible gift, to feel… to crave… to desire… it burns inside of me and I know that my life’s purpose is to act on it and never, ever stray from it.

I don’t belong here. I don’t belong to ANYWHERE and THIS is my passport to the UNIVERSE… Freedom first comes in the heart and the soul... ALWAYS x


xxRxx


Monday, September 21, 2009

WHISPERS OF A SUNDAY TO MY HEART...





The earth offers so much to us and yet most can barely see past the end of the street they live on... I am in love. With the possibilities this world will offer to me. So many places to discover, so many people to connect with... I think that in a past life I was a bird... I can feel my wings that I carried over into this world... A Pegasus. That's the inner animal i feel in my soul. All I want to do is fly... Fly into experience, fly to the moon and back, fly until the wind beneath my wings lay me down to rest in this life... And then on to the next I go...


This is the longest I've been away from my cherished room here. So many beautiful moments in between. More questions, gratefully and more faith every day. Everything that is TRUE is bound to survive. Everyday my mind grows larger. My appetite for all the beauty that life has to offer increases while my appreciation for all that I have in the present keeps me so happy and satisfied...

Freedom has ALWAYS been so important to me (another sign of the bird in me) no cage, no rules, no barriers... Just free to roam, explore, learn, love, connect, disconnect, feel, and discover... This past month I have been connecting with my freedom on a new level. I'm loving it. I want to grow through it. I will be surfing this wave for a minute...

I'm a risk taker, spontaneous to the max. I love to challenge myself with adventure. Independence is vital in my life, that is what makes me feel the most alive... ALIVE. What an amazing sensation to feel. As long as im feeling that everyday, I know I am doing exactly what I am meant to be doing in my life...


Many things stir in my heart at the moment. Memories are alive and kicking. You see I know how to put myself straight into a trance of emotions which rekindle moments in my life for me to relive them... Here I am. Re Living. Re Thinking. Re Learning. Re FEELING..


This year I have been witnessed my growth , witnesses my courage and witnessed my WILL step up to higher GROUND... Every day I am challenged. That is a blessing. I am forced to think. To stay creative. To keep my light shining bright. Everyday is a success...


I want to be on that train again, I want to be on the plane that takes me closer to the foreign mystery that feels like home.

LONGING.. what a feeling to experience... I long for some things... Oh do I long for some things... But. the thing is that I truly feel inside the depths of me that I will grasp hold of these things I long for...


Traveling to a city, starting all over. The excitement, the fear, the learning, the growth, the endless possibilities that the NEW can bring... It will be mine again... I was born to discover over and over again... well I suppose we all are but I am one who is truly AWARE of this and reach for it everyday...

...One of life's many gifts to cherish...

xxRxx

Monday, August 17, 2009

ONEonONE





Meet me in space... With it my heart on your sleeve, who could be so brave?
Its time to enter the room...
This sacred space that I don't try for but I yearn for...
With out my personal time and personal space I could never be complete.
I feel that it's an ABSOLUTE necessity to nurture yourself by going inside your mind to wander through your thoughts and ideas to think. plan. study. practice. and float in the clouds allowing them take you into a state of inspiration... It's a talent to be able to entertain yourself and its so wonderfully important to be able to enjoy your time alone in your own energy.
At this point in my life I could NEVER imagine not serving my mind, body and spirit the time and space they need to relax, explore and to grow...

Im really in an interesting place. A good place. Wandering through the hallways of my mind I FEEL. Yes I feel a lot actually... One of the very many wonderful things about being a Gemini (at least for me) is that I am able to have my Logic and my Emotions work together to do their best to live in harmony... Sometimes it can be really hard to make a decision but once I do, I never look back at the question, I proceed in the chosen direction with full intention. There is a buzz in the air and Im bouncing off of it. I am prepping myself for the end of summer and the action that will arrive with fall to knock at my door. I can also feel how much I am going to have to LOVE myself even more than I already do with a heavy state of busy on the horizon...

It's amazing really, it's almost as if this September is the start of the new year... well I suppose it is in the world I work in but I also feel this in my personal world.... and while I love the summer breeze that blows through my hair, it's time to walk the cement streets of metropolitan cities again while the leaves fall around me...

It's time for more acceleration. It's time for more progression. It's time for ELEVATION...

There is a sense of letting go in the air around me and because of it I can feel my power growing... self power and focus is an extremely effective way to climb the tower of life and gain the vision of success that you've painted in your ideas for yourself...

This is going to be a very energy demanding but strong personal growth period Im entering....
Within every new day I am grateful and feel like I am growing more and more of it as calender pages turn... I feel my awareness and I feel the warrior in me preparing for the trip in front of me, there is much coming my way before this year ends... I can FEEL it, I encourage it.

Im Ready.

xxxRx

























Friday, August 14, 2009

CALLING THE SHOTS






I'm staying awake to listen to the dark... Its the ending of a chapter and I can feel the seasons changing. I don't know what day it is nor could I tell you the time... I'm spinning with my eyes wide open and there are colors all around me... One shade for every emotion that is swimming inside of my heart at the moment... She beats so fast, she is protecting me always... she whispers to my mind "do not worry, I am your soulmate and I will always be here for you"... I am blessed to have her, I could never want anything more than her loyalty and love.

Its so important to LOVE yourself. This is the ONLY way you can ever truly love anyone else. To love someone else is journey, a very important journey that at it's best will grow you and at it's worst it will attempt to destroy you... I absolutely believe that there is a sacred kind of love for everyone who doesn't stop believing that there is. I also believe that in this day and age its healthy to experience a variety of experiences loving and being loved by different people. How else can we really know what we want and what we don't want. It's so wonderful the feeling of LOVE when its mutual and elevating. Its horrible when that same love turns into a break up and all of what was before, that made you feel so good are the very things that hurts you he most when you have no choice but to remember all of it...

Break up's. Yuck. Never fun. For either the heart breaker or the heart broken... It's almost as if everyone has to experience it at some point to be human. Have you ever tried to embrace the pain that can step from love? To stop yourself in the very moment of a tortured heart and be still so you can absorb the beauty of FEELING? It is a gift to be able to have your heart broken because it means that you were able to open it to LOVE and to be able to LOVE is the ultimate gift in life. Its a complete turn around when you can embrace that pain and actually I think it displays a sense of control that you posses over the situation rather than it controlling you.

Work it with, go with it, spin with it. Don't let it take you from YOU, let it bring you closer to YOU... it can if you allow it too...

Its obvious through my writing that I believe that we posses the power to live the way we want to live, rise to and above the emotions that surface in us, manipulate our destines by the choices we make and the way we view life and ultimately own our life rather than having it own us...

I feel the leaves loosening up preparing to fall. Fall... reminds me of so many different and important times Ive experienced in my life... Some of which challenge my emotions at the moment but I'm not surrendering to the challenge... I am going to look deeper into it and send it away properly. Its official. It's time for certain things that I cherished to be repositioned and clear my path so I can make room for AMAZINGness to step in front of me... I deserve it and I have the POWER to make that happen.

My whole life I have been writing. There were times when I would be sitting somewhere waiting perhaps in a line, for a friend-whatever- but I remember in those moments I would search for a piece of paper and pen because I had things that I just had to get out and put in front of my eyes to see... Communication is my gift. Translating through my hands is my passion. When I write I am forcing (with pleasure) my eyes to be confronted with my thoughts, ideas, goals and emotions... The minute it leaves my mind through my hands and becomes visible for me to see it becomes a commitment. A commitment to myself to witness and grow from my entries from the feelings and determination in my words. The biggest let down I could ever feel is me letting myself down. That's why I work so hard to make sure that I never do...
I know that as long as I continue to keep unwrapping events in my life as GIFTS regardless if they make me feel happy or sad, regardless if i understand them or are questioned by them... I will be able to look back and smile at the RICH life I have been lucky to have lived...

"Its easier to die than to LOVE... that's why I go through the trouble of living my LOVE"

xCommitedx

xxxROXANNExxx




Thursday, August 6, 2009

BIRDS OF PARADISE








What an amazingly wonderful place to be... A HIGHER state of consciousness...

A sensation that keeps all positive and uplifted, through trials and tribulations... the mind stays clear, focused and ready to make moves... The spirit is bright for all to see, the soul is alive and breathing the body through any areas of discomfort, pushing it carefully into a place of STRENGTH...

Love is all around me, I had the most wonderful weekend with some of the worlds most beautiful spirits that I am proud to call my friends and family... I danced my hips off of my body to incredible musik that I swear I could feel deep inside my inner existence...

Music... Wow. Music... Paves the road for me to dance through my life... Keeps the backdrop colorful and encouraging... Music has glued together so many pieces of my picture, gratefully no longer a puzzle but still so offering so much fantastic mystery... I love mystery, it allows for the mind to wander and to grow ideas, to push fourth direction and strive for something. HOPE.

New York. My heart. My home. Ive said it here before but I'm going to say it again. I was NOT born in New York BUT I WAS BORN TO LIVE IN NEW YORK and that is why I did for some very special years of my life. New York is the gateway to the world and I am so grateful for my connection to it and for it's connection to me... It has proved to me that when I FEEL I belong somewhere, I ABSOLUTELY DO. I know that I have more territory to cover when it comes to adopting different cities in the world to call home. To love where your at is so important. There is not one day I do not look outside my window to see the sun and ocean with thoughts of pure gratefulness. I LOVE my home. I'm not stopping here though. I have my heart set on bringing another beautiful city in particular into my home life and I will get what I want if it's meant for me to have. My adventure is clear. I'm on the move. The world offers up so many flavors and I have a HUGE appetite for it...

Culture is such a gorgeous thing and to BE cultured is a blessing... To be in touch with the world and to live with no judgement is one of the keys that will unlock the doors in life and allow for the most amazing experiences... Looking at life from Birds eye view allows me to see all that surrounds me, not just focusing on what is in front of me or what Ive left behind...It keeps me in harmony with what I cannot see or understand. This feeds my faith in my instincts and my instincts are my reliable wing men on this journey I'm on so without perfect LOVE and perfect TRUST in them I would be scattered...

I feel like I have grown a deeper fascination for life which allows me to look at things in a different shade of light than the "norm"... I can look at my challenges straight in the eyes and KNOW that I will not be defeated. I accept their battles for they offer me so much wisdom and strength and I gain more personal respect for myself when I conquer them... To have a deep personal respect and sincere LOVE for yourself is THE key to staying connected in MIND, BODY, and SPIRIT... once you gain that balance... well, then you can fly over rainbows if you want to... Clean out your closet, make room for change, keep your feet on the ground but your mind in the sky... Grow taller in your ideas and let your heart be as deep as the ocean...
Step up on YOUR stage and be your own audience, the show must GO on...

It's the simple things in life that offer the most beauty and substance... Somehow the simple things in life are the most complicated for most to grasp and understand... Crack that code and the party begins... I FEEL the wind turning in a direction that will let my wings glide through the sky and birds will applause my flight. This is all what YOU want it to be and that is the absolute TRUTH. I don't read "self help" books (nothing wrong with them just not my thing) instead I close my eyes, fall backwards into my dreams and allow them to push me forward...
They have never let me down, they have only taken me HIGHER and opened up so much room for life to offer me the secrets and treasures of how special it can be... Bring your treasures to YOU, they are waiting for you, perhaps OVER a RAINBOW... come and bring them to LIFE... .
I'm giggling at the thought of how much fun I'm having...

Xx ROXY xX













Sunday, July 26, 2009

TOUR DE FORCE





Crawling...
Into my favorite space.
.HERE.
Time is such an amazing element in life
It fucks with us and we fuck with it right back don't we,,, in fact in all fairness i believe we take turns fucking each other...
sometimes its as if Time knows something that we don't and is stringing us along on the edge of our seats waiting to discover just what exactly it is...
what is that dangling carrot leading us to?
In someways it's what ever we want it to be isn't it? Ultimately I believe that we have the power to manipulate our destinies, to mold them into what we desire by the choices we make and the actions we pursue in our every day...

I have always followed my heart. When I feel an extreme passion for something I become a slave to pursuing it. From music, to surfing, to travel, to art... in some special cases even love...
With my bow and arrow I point and shoot at the target of passion that puts fireworks in my heart, then like a hunter, my pursuit starts...

I was taught something when I was a young competitive runner from my father. These 4 words and the philosophy behind it stuck with me all these years and has made sense towards every single thing that I have been on the pursuit to achieve.

D. D. S. S.

These 4 words prove to be a valuable recipe
to achieve something that is not easy...


DESIRE- First and foremost one MUST have an extreme DESIRE to want to achieve the goal...
DISCIPLINE- There is NO way to accomplish without the discipline to do so, especially in today where there are so many tempting distractions to throw us off course. Maybe this is why I find DISCIPLINE so attractive... the challenge of keeping it alive is performance within itself...
SKILL- Skill, thinking outside the box, being creative and or having a natural flair for what ever it is that is being pursued can make the difference of gaining it or not...
STRENGTH- Yes, finally comes strength. I've always admired how strength came last because so many may think it would have to be first in the line but clearly after reading the last few sentences it's obvious why this important element towards success is not the first but the anchor in the race...

I can honestly say that out of all of the wants my heart has truly desired, the very most important and substantial wants I've successfully gained so far. It's an amazing feeling to be able to look back and know that I manipulated my journey while practicing that success recipe and captured the treasures I hunted.

Some say that I have done"so much" at such a "young age"... Well that is exactly how I did it. No fear, no question, simply just followed my heart and NEVER settled.
This is also why now I am truly able to believe that I will accomplish what sits in my heart at the moment. That said, I always leave room for things to shift at the will of the universe and I work with it because ultimately I know that what is healthy, pure and good for me is what will surface for me to celebrate.

And celebrate I shall... I love a good party...

Its amazing to acknowledge and practice the power to LIVE and ACHIEVE that I was born with. To surrender to NO ONE and NOTHING. To know that if I aim my bow just right, the energy of my passion in that pull will direct it in my favor... Targets are set and my aim is high...

Now I can go start my week...

XxRxxxx




Sunday, July 19, 2009

TICK TOCK...





Chapitre 1


Sunday Stillness in the morning feels like a cat purring closely into my ears...
I LOVE the stillness and silence of a beautiful Sunday morning... Its so worth sleeping early for on Saturday night
At the moment I feel like a cocktail. Mixed.
So many things brewing around me, the clock ticks, my mind swirls to the sound of it...
Where to go from here?... Everywhere of course.
What an interesting place to be experiencing.
There is no way around this, I have to embrace it, flow with it, and rise above it.
I DO NOT play with defeat, I only laugh at it.
This is my place to roll over and breathe.
To look up at the skies in my mind and float on clouds.
To feel the breeze between my hair and flirt with the sun that shines for me.
Some might wonder, Some don't care. This room is here for me to breathe and to stare..
Off into the depths of my heart and search... Explore...Discover...and celebrate the treasures that exist with in it.
Everything is Right you see... Im EXACTLY where I am supposed to be...
The universe would have it NO other way and I always meet her halfway...
Being a SURFER teaches you how to work with what you got, to flow with it and to get ahead of the sections that pop up in front of you
Of course the better the surfer, the smarter choices you make which result in better experiences to work with and a successful run at the end of the wave
Its all part of the process and its extremely motivating...
Fire added to Air goes BOOM
Im riding that explosion to the top where I can touch the stars...

Chapitre 2

The day of the solar eclipse brought fourth so many emotions inside me me...
Sunday's mixed cocktail became a serious blend of potent ingredients...
Im happy to report that I channeled all of it in a creative direction
I wrote in my journal in front of the ocean with the sun out high and bright
I sketched in the sand while the breeze whispered in my ears
And I worked on my new painting, feeling really good about the direction it's moving in
I feel good about the direction Im moving in...

Challenges
can be a gift
I wanted to erase that last line because there are many things to consider that make a difference in when exactly they are a gift and when they are unfortunate... but i don't have to explain it all, i suppose its all very individual so i will keep my sentence here because i truly believe in it.. after all who is really listening???
ME

xxRxx